Thursday, January 29, 2009

Here is my first HNT!

I took the pic down for a while, now that people have found my blog. Dang
Here is to all the men of my life that called me a tease.

My life just got simple and complicated.

Yea!!!! I told M he has to move out... I am so proud of myself. It sucked though because I had to crash on my friends couch last night, but it gave me an excuse to get him the hell out of there. (insert happy dance here). So my life got one step easier.

On the second had, my boss basically threatened me with my job. But I seems to have found one that offers better benefits. So i guess you could call it a lose/win situation. I am going to be checking into that today.

I was going to post a HNT but my computer has taken a trip with someones car. I told it that it couldn't go out unsupervised but it just did not listen. But I will leave you with this. I posted a while back that about a memory that I had with J (not sure if I revealed his name). Well I was out the other night and we got together and I got to relive that memory. I will write more with that latter along with a pick.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Fetish Day Part too

This is why I should never be left alone with nothing to do. So in honor of fetish day (Yes I know it is a little late) I colored my hair! I love shocking the hell out of people.

Not too much

So I am not in much of a mood to type, M has really pissed me off and made me not want to go home to my own apt. I had to be up really early this morning and could tell he was throwing a hissy fit last night. For christ sake he got up at 4am and turned on the light which also got me up. God I really wanted to throw something at him.

But I am going to try and post a picture on here. They are one of my favorite pair of socks and I hope you like them too. Plus whatever is behind me makes me look preggers....all I have to say is that I was drunk and in a bathroom with a camera, don't ask why.

Friday, January 16, 2009

Fetish Day

So it is fetish day, and I hope all of you pervs are wearing some purple. I know I am. To kick of my fetish day (ok it was about 12am and I had a few drinks) I was a stripper last night. Now I normally don't do this on a regular basis, or even at all. But the freak in me got the better last night, when I went out with the guys to the strip club, and decided stripping was a good idea. So there was one of my fetish goals accomplished. Yea Me!! So if you see anyone wearing purple today know that they have something dirty on their mind. What is on your mind today?

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

A dream

So I had a dream last night that left me waking up and panting and I thought I would share it.

She walked out of the bathroom in nothing but knee high white socks and black heels. Her hair was pulled into pig-tails as he had instructed her. He walked over to her and placed his hand between her legs "spread them" and she complied. He pressed his fingers against her slit. "Looks like someone had been naughty, I shouldn't even be touching you, you are nothing but a slut. Taste what a slut taste like." She hung her head shamefully and wanted to do nothing but please her master as she licked herself off his fingers.

"Now lay on the bed face down" she complied. He tied both hands and both feet to the bed. He took out a toy and placed it in her, she reacted by pushing against his hand. He smacked her ass hard, and she let out a whimper and knew she was not pleasing her Master. "You are not to cum" he instructed her. With that he turned the toy on and she could feel the vibration pushing on her G spot. She knew it wouldn't be long until she would be punished again, but she tried her hardest not to cum. Like a wave rushing over her she came, she knew she was in trouble

"I told you not to cum, and now you will receive you punishment." With that he propped her pelvis on a pillow, and gently started to rub his fingers around her rose bud and she gasped. She had never had anyone enter her there and she was afraid. She squirmed trying to resist him. He smacked her again. "If you keep trying to disobey me then this is going to get a lot worse."

She rested her head and defeat and knew that there was nothing she could do. He pushed one finger inside and she couldn't help but be shocked. Then he placed another inside her and she squirmed a little, he gave her two good swats, one on each check. She whimpered, she could feel another orgasm cumming on and wanted nothing more then to stop it, but she couldn't. She shook violently. She felt the tip of his rigid cock pushing against her opening and knew what her punishment would be. He entered here little by little, it hurt, she had never been stretched this much before and squirmed to get away. He grabbed her hips and held her still "I told you it would hurt a lot if you didn't stay still" and with that he thrust fully into her. She yelped and buried her face into the bed. She wanted to be everything her master wanted and she was going to do her best.

She turned her head to one side and replied "thank you Master" he ran his hand down her back and it calmed her. He began to slid in and out of her, she expected this to hurt but it didn't. She realized how full she felt from both her Master and the toy and came to enjoy the feeling. Before long she knew that she was going to come again, and she did hard. Her body shook and every muscle tensed in her. Her arms pulled against the ropes, trying to get her out and free to enjoy herself.

She had lost all her senses until her master left one great smack on her bare ass. She jumped, He took the toy out and replaced it with his hard dick and pounded her soaking cunt. She could feel him coming closer and pushed against him. He shook and collapsed on top of her. She could feel him feeling her up with his cum, and she whimpered. She wanted to taste him and he had denied her of that. "If you had behaved I would of let you taste me, but you didn't and this is part of your punishment. I am going to leave you her to think about your slutty ways." And with that he left her, she lay there thinking about everything, wishing she felt as full as she did minutes ago.

Monday, January 12, 2009

An Update on Q and M

Well, M has made his way out here and has been living with me for a week. And I have been keeping things up with Q as well. Dang, I really hate this. I have discovered that I can not do this multiple relationship thing. Dating is easy to do, there is no commitment, but relationships are fucking hard and not worth the worry and trouble. So here is what sucks.

I could probably do this if M did not live with me, plus not to mention Q has a key. This all happened before I though M was coming out here, Q works late hours (bartender) and when he gets off he comes over to my place. I am normally asleep (ok you got me, passed out) and it is normally easier for him to come over and spend the night. I have not been drinking lately to avoid this problem. Which leads me to explaining to M that I am going out to pick up my "girl" friend at the bar and then staying the night at "her" house because I am to tired to drive back. Its just getting to complicated and annoying.

I hate living with someone. I never realized it until now. I want to come home and do what ever I want and not have to explain anything. I don't want to explain where I am at, where I am going, what I am doing. For christ sakes its just too much. I hate having to separate things, like space in a closet, room in the bathroom. Not what I was imagining. Plus M is home all day trying to work on getting a job and so there is no time to sneak home and do anything. Which brings up this...Is there anything that you don't do in front of your significant other?

I think I like Q more then I like M. With M I feel like I have to entertain him all the time, partially because he is at my house and does not have a job yet. But with Q its just simple uncomplicated and relaxing. We can just be. I can sit around and read my book while he plays video games. With M I feel like we have to do the same thing the other person is doing (again it might be that we live together). Plus I like cuddling with Q, and I am not a cuddler. And M likes to cuddle but I just can't seem to get into it, might be the whole dating two guys thing.

But, what really sucks is none of this matters, M lives with me. I can't chose Q and expect M to just vanish. So tonight I am going to go and break up with Q (its just not fair to him, or me, or M). One thing I have realized I fucking hate relationships they are too hard and too complicated.

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Q and I

So it finnaly happened....Q and I had sex. And while I want to write a lovely post about how great and pleasing it was, I can't *sigh*. I don't know where to start. I am not saying it was bad, but it was extremely akward. I learned a lot about him, it may also not of helped that we were both pretty drunk. I think if we had not been drinking nothing would of happened. So here is what I learned.....

1. He does not like to be naked....that kind of sucks during sex if you ask me. He kept everything on except for his pants, which kind of have to go during sex. On the other side I am a bit of an nuddist, I love to be naked, and if I could I would be naked all the time. Not saying that he complains, I always strip down the minute I get to his house and I think he likes it that way.

2. For some reason he likes to have "funny" sex....funny to me is the kind where yes your are having sex but you tend to make fun of it. You make stupid animal sounds, like a growl or something. You tickle and make the other person laugh. While this is fun every once and a while, maybe not all the time (although I can't say he does it all the time because we only had sex once, but it seems that way). Yea well lets just say he was making fart noises on my stomach for about 30 minutes, and while it was cute at first it got old fast.

3. He got really emotional after while some of it is to blame on the alchol some of I do not. I am not talking about the cute kind where you snuggle and talk (which I also do not prefer but can deal with). It was more like a combination of "I really don't like having sex this early" coupled with "Don't hurt me like my last couple of girl friends." Which just makes you feel like you made a mistake and should of waited.

4. It seems that it is not going to happen again for a while....*sigh* now I can hold out if I have meet the person and not had sex with them, but when you have had sex with them what is the point of stoping again. Blah, you see dear readers as much as I hate to say it sex complicates things. I almost wish that it was just like a normal act, like shaking hands, now wouldn't that be fun.

Well that all kind of sucked there were some good things.

1. I got laid....*happy dance* it had been way to long and felt really good to be filled with a hard cock. After awhile masterbation just doesn't seem to do it anymore.

2. Our relationship became a little more perminate....hoping I can work out this M thing.

3. He is somewhat dominate...not truly dominate but he likes to be in charge, likes to spank, and likes to choke *big smile*.

4. Did I mention I got laid?

Well there you have it and heres to hopping I can write a really good post about a really great time *fingers crossed*.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

So I have screwed myself.

I am sitting here kicking my self in the ass. As I had mentioned earlier M was coming out here to live with me. Well, I called him and told him to hold off on booking his ticket and told him that I might have to go home (GA) to take care of some family things.Though that was not the case, I just didn't want to tell him that I had meet someone else (no point in hurting him, right?) Well he went ahead and booked it....

Everything with Q is going so well and now I have this other guy coming out here to live with me. I told Q about it, before M had a plane ticket, and told him that I was going to tell the M not to come. Now he is coming and I am so screwed. Why don't people listen? I kind of find it irritating and rude that M didn't listen. Makes me wonder.